Well, the day I never thought would be here is less than 4 days away. That's right...no one ever thought they'd see the day Savannah goes to college. I have so many mixed emotions that I want to share. So here it goes.
I'm scared.
Going to a new place with new people scares me. It's normal. I was so scared when I first went on the road with Silver Ring Thing because I didn't know what to expect. Same thing. I don't know what to expect...and I'm super scared in making new friends. I've never felt like I've fit in anywhere...so I'm nervous that I will feel like I won't belong.
I'm excited.
I'm excited to decorate my dorm room. I'm excited to live on my own and staying in one place. I'm excited to learn more about the Bible and ministry. I'm excited to explore and go on new adventures. I'm excited to room with Christine. I'm excited to see how God uses me and where He is going to lead me.
I'm not excited.
I'm not excited to do homework and to take tests. I'm not excited to read and do school work. I'm not excited to go to college. I'm not excited to live in the dorms or to even live on campus. I'm not excited to leave home yet and for summer to be over. I'm not excited that tour is over.
As you can see, the negatives are definitely stronger than the positives. But I hope I will learn to like it. All I know is I am confident in knowing God is in this and He is going to see that I am honoring my parents and going to college. All I can hope for is to hear those words one day...Well done my good and faithful servant. God, I am trusting in You. Thank You Jesus for giving me strength.
