Restless.

I'm tired. I'm tired of focusing on myself and not looking to the One who matters. This is my confession. I complain so much about college and how much I hate it. I lose focus on remembering that GOD HAS ME HERE FOR A PURPOSE. I'm restless trying to search for peace in my life. I'm restless because He is wanting me to lay it all at the cross...but for some reason, I haven't been able to yet. My prayer is that I am able to lay everything aside, forget about my selfishness, and remember that it isn't my life or MY desires. I am here for a reason and I keep forgetting that. On tour, it was so easy for me to see God at work. In between meals with the homeless and shows seeing thousands of kids give their lives to Christ, I was able to see God work...and I could see it so clearly. Then, I went to college. Not just any college, but a Bible college. Here, it has been so much more difficult for me to clearly see God at work and moving. But that's because I have had blinders on. I've been for focused on comparing everything about college to tour life, that I haven't been able to see God at work. Then I remembered this. God doesn't move; you do. While God has never left and never stopped working, I've been too blinded by my own personal desires, I haven't been able to see the bigger picture. The picture that God has me here. Instead of responding to people when they ask, "How's college?" I'm going to work on saying, "It is exactly where God has called me." I pray that I am able to lay everything down at the cross. Here I am LORD, Your will, NOT MINE.

Jesus, I am sorry from the bottom of my heart for letting my personal desires get in the way of what You have for me. Take me, I'm Yours. Forever<3 div="div">