I have found myself often alone. If you know me at all, you would know that I love being around people. In fact, most of the time, I would avoid being alone at all times. Constantly needing to surround myself with people was starting to affect me. I realized that I wasn't evaluating my own life. I was constantly searching to help others in their own lives. Being alone has probably been one of the biggest blessings to be completely honest. It has helped me to grow spiritually, evaluate my personal life, and most importantly, learn. Learning to be still. When my grandfather passed away, I was given a blanket. On the blanket, it reads this...
"Come to a quiet place and rest." -Mark 6:31
Often times, we get so caught up in the midst of the world that we forget to sit and be silent. In silence, we are able to truly hear what God is trying to speak to us. We are able to seek answers and most importantly, seek Him. Enjoy it. Listen to what He is trying to speak to you. And trust that His plan is perfect. It's okay not to be okay and to be broken. Take time by yourself in order to find who you truly are in Christ.
I have also found myself becoming anxious. Anxious about what He has planned for me and just wanting to know what's next in this journey. But God so clearly tells us to trust His timing. In Acts, when the disciples ask Jesus if He is going to restore Israel, this is what He says...
He said to them: "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." -Acts 1:7-8
Just like Jesus told His disciples, it is not up to us to know the exact dates. All we can do is trust. Trust that His plan for us is perfect. We must trust that He has us in this period of life for a specific reason. But how are we to be content in this stage if we are constantly searching for something so much more? It's okay to get excited for the future...we should be so excited that He has something great planned! But we must also first learn to be content with here and now in order to enjoy all that He has for us in the future. Jesus tells His disciples not to leave the city until the Holy Spirit comes. In this same way, we should not try and go somewhere that is not led by the Holy Spirit. Learn to be patient and wait for the LORD to show you the next step.
No matter where you are in life, or where you feel God is calling you to next, I ask you to challenge yourself. I challenge you to enjoy here and now. He has called you to THIS moment for a reason and a purpose. It's up to us to make the most of every moment He has given us. This moment. Your time is now.
"Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger, in the presence of my Savior." -Oceans, by Hillsong United
