Update.

so...I didn't realize that it's been a while since I've blogged. I also just realized that I never shared my experience of preaching for the first time in my life. so HERE'S THE STORY...

well, I'm so proud to say I got the humble privilege to speak for my church's youth group. and let me just say, nervous was an understatement of how i felt. my youth group contains about 200 middle schoolers and high schoolers. making me that much more nervous. thanks to dylan for his positive encouragement. "Savannah, just remember. If you mess up......it's going on the website for the world to see!" thanks for that dylan. unfortunately, it didn't get recorded. so even though i didn't mess up, it didn't go on the internet...something with recording it went wrong:/ BUT ANYWAYS. I just wanted to share everything that went on that night inside of me.

First off that night, I was freaking out nervous, like I said, almost to the point where I wanted to throw up. all there was left for me to do, was get down and pray. Once everyone showed up and service got started, I realized there was nothing left I could do. It wasn't in my control on how much I practiced, if I didn't practice enough or what not. so, service got started and we had worship time and worship music to start everything off. I tried staying focused during music. Just surrendering and giving it my all. Once worship was over, I was no longer me. all fears and nerves, completely gone. I went up on stage, and I don't remember a thing. I let the LORD speak through me and control everything. and, as expected, because God is amazing, He took over, and according to others, I did awesome. all I know is, that was the deciding factor, that this is what God is calling me to do. He is calling me to do youth ministry. It is what the LORD wants, and no longer about me...because let's face it. we ALL hate public speaking. I give You control LORD. I hand You my life, and I Praise You for all the opportunities You continue to give me LORD. You are amazing, and I don't deserve any of Your love. thank You for controlling my life. I love You LORD!

I now leave you with one of my favorite, and a famous Bible verse...

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. -Proverbs 3:5-6