Rest In You. [future]

Tossing my cap in the air on graduation day was such a bittersweet moment. We waited so long for that simple moment...and when it came, we cried. We wanted to turn back time and do it all over again...as much as we all said we'd never want to see Moon High School again. It's hard to let go. Memories, laughter, friendships, hallways, teachers, skip days, after school activities, everything. I'm gonna miss it to be honest, which I never in a million years thought I would say. Now that the countdown has begun and everyone will be splitting in a matter of days/weeks, it's a scary thought. I'm nervous. I'm nervous for my future...still. I'm nervous for tour and living on the road. I'm nervous for a lot of things, but I am so encouraged by the main view...God using me. I know He is going to use me more than I could ever imagine. It is one of the hardest things knowing I am going to be leaving behind friends that need me, family that needs me...especially after Pappy died, and leaving home. I'm scared to death. All I am left to do is pray. Pray for strength. Pray for wisdom. Pray for love. Pray for everything to work out the way it is planned. I have to keep focused on the fact everything happens for a reason. I will not rest until I rest in You.

I received a blanket from my Pappy's funeral that says, "Come to a quiet place and rest." -Mark 6:31. It has now become one of my favorite passages. The blanket is gorgeous and has Jesus standing at the gate. Just looking at it gives me peace...about EVERYTHING. I miss Pappy, more than anything in this world. But it was his time. God had plans for him. I was his life. That was proven to me when I weighed 7 pound 11 ounces when I was born...Pappy died July [7] of 2011 [11]. He had to leave. But Jesus was there waiting to greet him and reminding him in that hospital bed, come to a quiet place and rest.

A song that gets me through tough times is one shown to me by a friend, Holly. Thank you Holly...this song, and you, are truly a blessing to me.

Restless by Audrey Assad

You dwell in the songs that we are singing
Rising to the Heavens
Rising to Your heart
Our praises filling up the spaces
In between our frailty and everything You are
You are the keeper of my heart

And I'm restless
I’m restless
'Til I rest in You
(Oh God I wanna rest in You)

Oh speak now for my soul is listening
Say that You have saved me
Whisper in the dark
'Cause I know You’re more than my salvation
Without You I am hopeless
Tell me who You are
You are the keeper of my heart

Still my heart
Hold me close
Let me hear a still small voice
Let it grow
Let it rise
Into a shout
Into a cry

I am restless until I rest in You. <3

God, You are my rock on which I stand. You are my refuge. You are my Savior. My Father. My everything. Thank You Jesus. For wrapping Your arms around me no matter what. I praise You LORD.