Some late night poetry...

I chose to keep a lock on my heart.
Refusing to let You in.
What do You mean I can have a fresh start?
Have You not heard of my sin?

I was so afraid of what You might see.
The horror of it all was You finding out the real me.
And there was absolutely no way that I could ever let that be.

You tell me I'm forgiven.
You tell me that I'm still loved.
Even when You had to prove it by the spilling of Your blood.
God, but I don't deserve it!
I don't deserve to know Your love!

Why....me....?
Can't You see?
I can't be free!
This baggage I carry is too much for me!

I can't give You the key.
At least I thought I couldn't.
But that's when I realized...I just wouldn't.

You still desire for this shattered heart of mine.
Are You sure that it's fine?
I mean I know it's not divine.
I'm sorry for doubting You when You turned water into wine.
I know now that it was all Your design.

You created me perfectly.
And I apologize for living carelessly.
Forgive me Father for I now know what's best.
To follow Your path and to never forget that
I. Have. Been. Blessed.